Ranting is beneficial to your health. If you don't rant at least once a month, your mental garbage will quickly turn from a trash can to a garbage truck. And so for your own sake and others, Rant!!!
I'm not new to ranting but it's been a while since I last posted my last rant. Sometimes I have so much to rant about, and other times it feels like I'm going on and on about the same stuff that I have said a million times before. Perhaps this is what happens when you go through the same mundane and exhausting situation on a regular basis. I am complaining about my goddamn life.
When I left my job a few months back, I was thinking about my mental health and many other ways I could keep myself busy while earning some money on the side. I made some plans that were still in the first stage but I had hope. But my life somersaulted - not one, but it feels like every day my life looks back at me with that evil villainous grin and says "Time for my daily somersault girlie!!! Look how marvelously I somersault towards a cliff. Shall I do just one or perhaps 10? Let's go for 5." Even though I have ranted and complained about my life before, at least I had some breathing room. Nowadays, everything in my life is upside down - life can be so acrobatic.
After surgeries, I thought I'd recover a little and give my plans a better form but life had other plans for me. I remember the saying If you want to make God laugh, tell Him about your plans.
I don't complain about what He's doing, but I can scold my life for not going the same way I want it to. What's the point of all the plans if I can't even start with them? I wonder if life will get offended if it went on with my plans for once - as if life is a living being that can think on its own. Many of you are also facing sticky situations that life puts you in I believe and I'm not alone. I shouldn't take comfort in that but when I think for a second and I see that even though I'm alone in my boat, there are plenty of other people in other boats in the same sea it's endurable.
Do you get tired of complaining about life? I do. Most of the time I get tired of ranting about the same shit that doesn't really change form in months and I ran out of words. If that wasn't enough, my day-to-day life is so messy that I have no time to think about mental health. I barely realize when the sun comes up or another day just passed. Life is passing me by and I'm not even looking. At times the thought comes to mind that I should stop complaining and take charge because this stuff has been said too many times, but has it? It feels like I blinked and a month has gone by.
Did my life turn into a TARDIS? Where is Doctor Who?