Many people go through their difficult times, disappointment can occur anywhere without realizing it, therefore disappointment is commonplace to become a problem that becomes a person's life journey.
I was once a man who was admired by my boyfriend's family, at that time I was in a serious relationship with a girl who became the passion of my life for the three years we were dating, many days filled with smiles that we went through during the three years of dating. At that time we had promised to take care of each other and respect each other and also complement each other. I feel very happy. My boyfriend's family is very caring, they expect us to get married as soon as possible but I asked for time to continue to the level of marriage, me and my girlfriend have agreed to continue our education outside the city for three years. At that time my boyfriend's family and I had agreed to step up to the level of marriage next year and our decision was unanimous for that.
We both live overseas and both continue our education outside the city, we often communicate by cell phone and video calls from time to time, our relationship lasts for one year in this education and we haven't seen each other for a year. It's hard to imagine if the planning faded and became the bitterest memory that I went through, the disappointment that made me feel devastated and my boyfriend betrayed me, he left his agreement to continue his marriage with another man. Disappointment that got me killed.
It's hard for me to forget someone I hoped for but fate separated us. It may take time to forget someone who made me sick with betrayal. I think it is a life ordeal that is a lesson for me, sometimes at night I am helped by the girl's shadow. I try to introspect myself and learn to forget everything by looking for entertainment and often hanging out with my friends, I try to get rid of my deep disappointment by finding my own busyness by watching and reading books.
This situation taught me to live again, I started my days without a burden that haunts me from time to time, I thought, I can kill this disappointment slowly even though the woman I hoped for had left my life so quickly . I don't think I've had any luck and I'm getting used to being cool-headed and not thinking about the weird stuff that burdens me with a girl.
I am a person who is too innocent and easy to trust someone to love, when a girl has entered into my life, maybe I easily accept and trust sweet words from poisonous lips. I thought it was just an immoral nightmare, I tried to forget those memories and disappointments with busyness.
I have also let it go as if I was a child and did not know what love is, until now I have been able to forget someone even though it is still an imprint.
