Hello mommies, this song is for you. I decided to sing a song for us who are struggling in facing postpartum depression. I just want to say that everything will be alright and everything we do everyday are great. We're all amazing moms, right? "I'll be alright by Sarah G. "
It's almost two years. I really don't know when did it start but I guess it all started when I was crying out of nowhere without me knowing the reasons why. I also was thinking negative thoughts and made me drained a lot. I was trying my best to be a good mom but it seems I am doing not enough for my son. I don't know why I always feel self-pity. And sometimes, I like to rest as I feel so much exhausted. Have you feel the same way with mine?
They said, my husband should be always there for me in times like this. Yes, he is. He's a supportive a husband and a father. He helped me taking care of my son but there will always times that I felt alone and no one understands me. The reason I will not talk to him as I feel like he don't understands me. But everytime that my mind was clear, all I think was his gestures and thoughts of helping me out for everything and that made me feel so guilty. I should appreciate him doing things for me but I just don't know why I am like this like there were times of me not appreciating him because I felt alone.
I have lots of negative thoughts and it's draining the whole system in me. I just like to sleep and sleep but I can't because I need to watch and care for my son as we are the only one in the house when my husband is working. I want to have someone to talk to but I don't have someone with me but only my son. How I wish I am near with my parents so that I have someone to talk to. But then, I guess I need to face it all alone though I have my husband, but I don't want to give burden to him and add what's he's facing now. I need to be strong in facing on my own struggle too and not be always dependent on him.
This kind of depression is really hard to handle but I know I will be fine, soon. What I am doing now is to divert my thoughts through watching movies while my son was asleep. Or sing a song while he's asleep. And blogging here in hive also helps me a lot. And also thankful with my virtual friends who I able to interact with to make my mind busy.
This song is one of the songs that I sing everytime I felt bad and tired as my depression strikes. It's because I want to remind myself that everything will be alright. That I am doing good for my son's sake. That I am an amazing mom. And that every struggle I am facing as a first time mom will be all worth it in the future. All I need to do is to be strong in facing everyday even how hard and tiresome it would be. This postpartum depression will be gone soon, I know. I just need to fight it with all my might for me not to lose.
I hope you also fight mommies. Always remember that we are amazing and our children will be proud of us soon as they gets bigger. Let's not lose hope as we reach our goals for our children. It may be hard to be a mom and a lot of things may happen out of control but always remember that mommies are super woman. We may get tired of everything but I know we are strong enough in facing things for our children. Let's fight this postpartum depression together mommies. And for those who lucky enough of not having this sickness, I do hope that you'll lend your ears and give warm and kind words to us.
That's all for today mommies. Have a nice day and thank you for watching my cover.
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