I am to an unfathomable length a pretty jealous being, as a friend, a lover, or even as a buddy etc.
I do not love to share my favourite people, it could be seen as a bad or negative energy but all the same, we have this trait one way or the other.
I don't like having to pick up something beautiful with someone and along the way someone else cuts in too. I mean why not go find your own person? Even as a friend, I do not appreciate that idea. Perhaps except the friendship started on that note of being 3-4 in the circle.

I just sat and reminisced a good number of times I got jealous over friendships, I felt bad about people stealing or taking my place in my friend (s) life. It was so hurting and I couldn't even imagine it, so having to experience it was way terrible. I felt so bad, so pained, so hurt like I was betrayed or something. I couldn't help the negative and bad feelings I was having and it kinda made me react badly to those situations.

Even though I've been working on myself to let go of such negativity, having something trigger it is what I mostly need to look out for. I don't want to go about with such negative feelings lest it becomes worse and leads to something more. I could channel these jealous feelings of being replaced with something worthy of admiration. I could advocate for love and unity amidst all of this, and I should learn to create extra rooms for others to occupy as well, because I just simply cannot have my friends all to myself.
Note that I only mentioned friends in this context, not a lover, cause I mean certainly I wouldn't want to share my life partner with anyone.
So while relaxing and pondering on this, I hope we all work on our bad energies and turn them into something good and something much worthy.

^{PS: Photos are mine except stated otherwise}

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   25 January ~ Saturday