Hello everyone,
I hope you are enjoying good health. And I am too. (Surprisingly that's 100% true)
I am enjoying my mental and physical health. At this very moment, I am very calm and very much happy with where I am. I am sure there are billions of places where I can be happier. I am happy, even when the week had been nothing but trouble at work, and trouble in my personal life. I am happy, even when the IT dept has dispatched a dispatched ITR1 and my finance is still recovering from my stupid decisions of the past. There is no particular reason for being happy, I am just happy. I am happy and calm.
I scolded my subordinate very badly two days back for something that he could have done much better. That too in the morning, the first thing. It was a silly thing but I scolded him as if he was the cause of the current market situation. The anger was probably the result of the small otherwise insignificant things bugging me in the morning, like the taste of tea was bad, some idiot parked right in front of the gate and went to Mars, I guess. A huge truck with an air horn was blasting near home. The JIO signal was acting up. And probably everything that happened that morning was contributing to the outburst.
So, I analyzed it and found that if anyone is to be blamed it was me. With each event, I had the option to let it go or to accumulate it. I chose the latter. The tea tasted bad, I had the option to provide feedback and express my dissatisfaction right away. But, I chose to stay quiet as the person who was serving tea was a hardworking fellow and maybe he might have slipped this one time. I could have asked the truck guy to watch it and express my discomfort at his annoying air horns. The JIO signal issue is nothing new, and still not my problem, but the JIO’s. And I could have ignored the guy who parked in front of the gate who was probably an Ass.
And when I saw the report with mistakes, I let all hell loose on that guy. Just because I was already in bad mood. I had given him the most confused lash-out ever. I was angry at things like the color of the final report and other stuff which shouldn’t be an issue. I was looking for a way to release the anger and found this guy. But after analyzing the situation, I realized that being angry is not at all productive. In fact, it drains more of your energy. When you are angry at someone you are directing your energy at that person but with the wrong intent. It's like using an Air-conditioner being used for heating up the room. No matter how much you try you will end up burning energy and nothing is achieved.
I am Inuke.
And I am yet to find a solution to the Outburst If it ever happens again. But I can say with 100% confidence that It will not be because of some silly reason.
Oh!! Almost forgot.
I am host a contest in IU community Inuke's Blog Writing Contest #2: Beware of Scammers please do check it out.
And before signing off, I would like to thank IU and be awesome community. If you are looking to meet some really awesome people join the discord channel.
