Every now and then - original

todayslight in #hive-193816 • 2 years ago

Hi Hive,

Lewis here!

I dusted off this little song i wrote years ago as it was played on my friends @daniellemurray podcast and got me wanting to play some of my older songs.

I have noticed how large i look on camera, and it is true i am quite a lump now a days, i don't think of myself as big though as i was always very skinny before i had to start taking this god awful medication for my mental health.

So i've decided to go walking as much as possible, eventually i'll be running, i do hope.

I intend on getting back to my weight before the meds destroyed my metabolism, i'll never get back to 9.5 stone but i'm aiming for 12-13 stone.

Anyway, the song: Written about how useless i am to be with (for my ex).

Song is just two chords throughout.

Lyrics:

I'm only here for the rare moments
You need somebody'd guidance
I do try to help you out
But i'm pretty much useless
All i want to do is sit around
I've forgotten how to make moments

But every now and then
You need me to un-do a jar
Or reach something in the cupboard
I do the washing up
Every now and then
Every now and then

Moments are made
by forgetting yourself
just for a minute
Without thinking you create memories that'll last
We forget most things in a matter of seconds
and what we do remember is only half true
So i gues try not to choose
By being selfish
No-one wants to lose
Every now and then

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2 years ago in #hive-193816 by todayslight

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sapphireissafy 2 years ago

You have quite similar state to a person I love. As I have always told him, I hope you are not blaming yourself for reaching this weight. You know it ain't your fault and still, you can fix it. Quiet hard to get through if we only think of the appearance, but what is more important is our health and we are just fighting for our health. Moreover, please don't think of yourself as a useless, you may have been exhausted somehow and that makes you locked the best value inside for a moment. I have a reminder for myself like this "They are not bad, they just can't sometimes give us the best though they want."

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todayslight 2 years ago

:) Thanks, it is an old song, i'm more settled now within myself, but do need to do something to feel more at home in my skin. Peace and love.

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daniellemurray 2 years ago

Nice picking - I like this one a lot. You're in good voice, too!

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todayslight 2 years ago

Thanks, i'm hoping that if i exercise i'll get better at singing though.

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daniellemurray 2 years ago

some world class singers have been very large. look at pavarotti! it's never a bad idea to exercise though

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jerrytsuseer 2 years ago

Hey @todayslight, this is a heartfelt tune. Believe me my friend, I know about that weight gain from MH Meds. Each time I would stop mine (the Dr knew) I would almost immediately drop 20 lbs.
You are worthy of feeling better my friend. and NO ONE is useless.
Never think that!

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todayslight 2 years ago

Thanks, i doubled my weight in a year on the meds, terrible!

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jerrytsuseer 2 years ago

I wish I could give you better advice.
I know in my heart and I'm completely convinced that had I not been diagnosed as "Clinically Depressed" and getting on medication for it, I would be dead today.
After years and years of rehabs I had not been able to stop drinking and doing drugs, I'd lost everything and burned all my bridges back home.
Being on the antidepressants gave me some levelling so that I could finally stop and stay off them,
But after more than 10 yrs sober, and wanting to try Chantix for smoking cessation (no antidepressants allowed, so I got off the MH med, and in two months stopped smoking cigs) it was when I realized I dropped the weight directly resulting from dropping those meds.
So I have PTSD/OCD and severe anger management issues, but I do NOT take any MH meds on a regular basis, using counseling and meditation instead.
So having lost everything to 40 yrs of drugs and alcohol, I now own my own home, I have enough disability income to take care of all my bills and I am doing well. I am alone, and likely to remain that way; been a grumpy old man too long to change I guess 🤣

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todayslight 2 years ago

Sounds very similar to me, i struggled with drink and drugs for a long while, diagnosed with schizophrenia at 25, it's been a tough road, but i have some good friends now a days to help me through, where as before i was alone. Thank you for sharing you're story (part of) and i am grateful to have met you.

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jerrytsuseer 2 years ago

↑Upvoted↑and←Reblogged→

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todayslight 2 years ago

Thanks, again. I really appreciate it. Hope for the future!

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jerrytsuseer 2 years ago

As my friend @wesphilbin says #tomorrowisthegoal

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